"Me" Time

Can You Be Alone ? I’ve grown up in a big city, I have a huge family, I went to a big school, and I have a natural affinity towards “hanging out with people.” But somehow I’ve always been alone in my life. As I’ve started to grow, I’ve started to appreciate being alone, ever so much more. I can learn how to deal with myself; I can learn how to think on my own; and I get to say and do whatever I want. ; ) I’ve since found that the most attractive part to the big cities I love…is their ability to offer some way to escape the madness. So, here I am in this huge metropolis of foreignness, and there are people everywhere, all the time, like always , and now I spend my evenings figuring out how to “get away , but not go anywhere at all.” A wise person, once upon a time, showed me what it was like to live “today” and at the same time, look at the same thing you see everyday, as if it’s the first time you’ve seen it. In fact at the time, this person was staring at the sun. At first I was like…”dude, it’s just the sun” and the person was like “I know, isn’t it beautiful.” At that point I think I found something, something that was hidden in me since I was a quarter of my current age. I felt, at the ripe old age of 22, like I was old, and not as “fun” I once was. I think through that time, and numerous times hence, I have started to find my “wow”. I’m from Chicago, IL ( which you can read in the upper right corner I’m sure ), I’ve spent 24 years of my life in Chicago, and only appreciated it , 6 months ago. This world is amazing, I literally thank God everyday I can wake up and experience another one, and just …”wow.” Life is great, and it’s horrible. Life is running by at the speed of light, and moving slower than molasses. What are doing with the precious time we have here? Where are we going? Who are we meeting? And can we recover from the costs of a love had, wanted, or lost? Can we remember what it’s like to be a kid, and still be a responsible adult. Are we actually using all the senses that we have been given to experience life? I walk out on my balcony every morning and I look out as far as I can see and think…”Wow, what am I doing today?”